Longing...

Hi everyone,

It's time for another list. Honestly, I think the art of list-making has slowly morphed into some anal-retentive, over-cautious activity for Jeopardy bound geniuses and over-worked soccer mom's. I (with the help of a few college friends) hope to bring back the art of list-making. It can be quite therapeutic, I'd say. I encourage you all to try it sometime :)

Ok, well tonight, the topic of my list will be longing. I'm not sure if I've ever talked about longing on this blog before. Chances are high, since I talk about a lot of stuff... actually... chances are high since I talk a lot period. BUT... I'm gonna talk about it again. Longing is a crazy animal. It makes you think crazy things, feel crazy things and sometimes even makes you do crazy things. I'm not just talking longing for the extremely attractive guy that sits across the room from you in Human Relations (granted, that is totally just an example!! ;) !!) ... I'm talking about longing in it's entirety. Both good and bad. I do think that there can be two distinct ways one can long for things. "Bad" longing is, of course, the kind where you are continually unsatisfied with what you are given. Really wanting a cuter pair of gym shoes or a Yellow jeep Wrangler with black roll bars when you already have some pretty sweet kicks and a cute Ford Focus (again... just an example!). "Good" longing is, in my opinion, the hope and expectation of something better while appreciating what you already have. I know that may sound stupid, but think about it. I've been given quite a bit in my life... I have a great family, wonderful friends, a beautiful house to live in...etc...the list goes on.... BUT... I do long for my new apartment, and the start of my "new" life in Minneapolis. I long for marriage and a family of my own someday, but am quite thankful for the stage of singleness that I am in right now. Anyway... so that's the difference... at least in my opinion. I am most certainly guilty of the "bad" longing, possibly moreso than the "good". Maybe that's all bull-honkey... but it's what I'm feeling right now.

SO... without further ado... My list of longings....

I long for:
A good night's sleep
Spring
Romance
A good book
A diet cherry soda that doesn't taste like a diet cherry soda
My new apartment
Late-night conversations
Guitar with Joanna
That giddy first-date feeling
A gut-busting laugh
Yellow roses
Meeting new friends
A husband
My new job


This list could go on and on, but making it has taken far more time than expected. As it turns out... I don't long for as many things as I thought I did. Or, at least, I can't think of them right now. So... with that... I should go. I am taking my Music Therapy Board Certification test tomorrow at 1:30. Since I have no real reason I get up before noon... I should head to be early to ensure some studying time before the test. Wish me Luck!

Live Happy~
Tempa