Finally Friday!

Good evening all!

Well here we are, approaching another weekend... another weekend closer to my time at Wartburg, that is!! I talk to Kate and Betsy nearly every day and I am just sooo excited to see them, my roommates, and the choir again! Betsy and I often talk about how weird it is to be done with that place, but it's a good kind of weird. A kind of weird that we all have to experience eventually!

So I have been reading this book lately. A book that is supposed to get my mind on track when it comes to the future of my life. The married by 26, three kids by 32, nice house, soccer Mom SUV and a Golden Retriever named "Mikey" part of my life! You see... I have a disease. A disease that causes me to over analyze every aspect of everything. This unfortunate ailment also causes me to plan ahead... far ahead... too far ahead. Because of this, I have gotten myself into many a pickle only to rely on God's Grace to get me out. Luckily He prevails each time, but not without allowing me just enough pain to realize I need His help in curing the disease in the first place. That's kind of what the overall theme of this summer was for me. Curing The Ailment, that is, and the book that I finished last night really drilled the cure into my head. TRUST. It's hard to believe that such a terrible disorder can be fixed with such a simple word, but it's just what The Doctor ordered. So often in our lives we get overwhelmed with what God puts on our plates that we fail to realize that He has never once asked us to eat it all in one sitting. In the Lord's prayer we ask God to "give us TODAY our DAILY bread" and when the Israelites were roaming the desert, God knew how long they would be there, but yet He chose to rain down bread from the heavens on a daily basis. Even though these examples sound elementary, they are amazing illustrations of how Christ wants us to learn daily dependence on Him. If we make a daily commitment to trust that it's all gonna work out the way that He has intended it to, pretty soon, we'll be breathing our last breaths and we can rest in the knowledge that we trusted our Lord every step of the way! In short, if I stop looking towards and planning my own future and start trusting God with and living my present... I'm going to have the courage and the strength to face anything that may come down my road. Before I know it, my future will BE my present and I'll be happier than I have ever experienced. The knowledge of that is enough to cure my disease :)

I leave you tonight with lyrics from a song I wrote about 2 years ago. It's funny how He knew what would be on my heart now, even then.

"Even though I know that you have plans for me, I make my own..."
Tempa