Pilot Episode

hello friends,

i have recently returned from a wonderful weekend in the middle of the heartland. All of my college roommates (seven including myself) got together in one place for the first time since we graduated over two years ago. it was long-awaited, but seemed to come at the perfect time. it did my heart good to see those girls again and i have a feeling that becca, joanna, alicla, sarah, nicole, and amy would say the same.

i tried to go to bed before nine o'clock tonight. this ingenius idea backfired as it is now only 11:30 and i have awoken from what turned out to be an evening nap. damn that internal body clock!

sometimes, i feel like my life is playing out like the end of a grey's anatomy episode. tonight is no exception. here i am...at the end of the day...with the perfect acoustic melody playing in my head, while i am internally flooded with sudden realizations, hilarious recaps, and thought-provoking questions only to be answered in next weeks episode. i realize that the world is truly perfect in it's imperfections and i rest the comfort that fact provides. i realize that friends in which your life once revolved around can dissapear completely in mere moments and i try to explain away how it could possibly be my fault. i wonder how improving one's life could seem so easy in thought, but proves to be so difficult in it's execution. i wonder how life and love can be such a wonderful pairing, but at times, somehow don't seem to coexist at all. i rest as the melody crescendos, not knowing what tomorrow will bring and what pickle i will inevitably get myself into. i rest with questions unanswered.

ut this is life.

this is good.

let the credits role.