Disclaimers #1 and #2

#1
*** yes, this last blog was rather self-deprecating, but i said that it would be honest and it was. i don't want you all to think that i'm sitting at home wallowing in my homeliness or watching america's next top model with green tears of jealousy steraming into the pillow beneath my head... because that is not the case. not at all. like i said... i am who i am... and i like who i am. i'm glad i'm funny. i'm glad people like me. i'm the fun one for a reason and more often than not those reasons are great. sometimes, thought being the fun one means there's not much to say after someone asks about more than being the fun one. c'est la vie! ***

#2
Disclaimer .2
** Some of you seem to have misunderstood me... it isn't that I don't like myself. I do. Sometimes too much, to be honest. It isn't that I don't think I'm pretty... because I do. Granted, I also think there are some things that I could change and I am slowly but surely learning how to change them. What I don't like is being put into a category. I don't like being boxed into this one thing that I am only recognized as. Somehow I think that is as much my fault as it is others. As much as I don't like being the funny one, being the funny one has always been an easy escape... a safe route... a familiar place.

So... no... I don't think I'm homely. I used that word in my last blog for vocabularies sake. However, I don't think I'm going to be a painter's muse anytime soon either. I don't think I'm gonna stop any traffic by shaking out my harvest colored curls on the street corner, but I do think I am worthy of love... both from myself and someone else.

I hope my over dramatic cyber-rants don't make you think otherwise.**